Wednesday, September 28, 2011

When it rains it pours

Lately I have been MIA with friends and doing play dates. It isn't because i don't want to see them. It is solely because of all of the stress from bills and money issues. I have still had a coffee all day in house friend session with my bestie on Monday's. If not for her I would not have any adult interaction except for my hubby and brother. I haven't left the house in three weeks except for grocery shopping or family get togethers like birthdays, baby showers and wedding showers. I try to leave to go on an outing outside of home or a play date but I don't want to spend any money in fear of all of the money issues since I am the one who pays the bills and sees everything. I hate knowing sometimes. Just as I was finding solutions to things I get hit with another problem. I had a dentist appointment today for a tooth I cracked a year ago. I never got it fixed since i didn't have insurance. So I found out that my periodontal disease isn't resolved and i need a deep scaling again on both sides plus I have 8 cavities plus a wisdom tooth that is having issues so it will be pulled out plus the cracked tooth needs a root canal. This was not what I was expecting. So now I have to cover all of this after the insurance or I will lose teeth. I really need a break from bad stuff and money issues. Or I need to win the lottery. I pick option b lol. OK since that won't happen I am trying to find ways to make my money problems easier. I have often thought and discussed about me going back to work but we agreed it can't happen since I will be paying for a sitter. I apply all the time for babysitting/nannying jobs but when they see that my 19month old is with me they don't want to hire  me because they don't think I can focus on their kid and mine. I do go online every day and do surveys that pay me money but its not a lot. I am not complaining because every little bit counts. I try to stay positive and find ways to make everything work but things start to pile up and the stress gets to me. So I stay in the house so i don't spend any money and I am going crazy in this house. I miss my friends. I also decided on finding play groups in my town since the moms group I was in was at my old address that I lived a year ago and most events are not always close for me. I don't mind driving distances to see people but sometimes it just gets hard with Evil E's nap time. I really need adult conversation. I get depressed and lonely sometimes but I am trying. I am grateful for the friends I do have and the family I have.