crazy thoughts in my head

So don't laugh but I watched Paranormal Activity on Saturday and it has totally rattled my brain. I love horror movies, being scared, haunted houses. This is different, this was not just a horror movie it was a demon affecting peoples lives in their home. You might not believe this but i believe those kind of things are real and can mess with you. I won't go into into a lot of detail but it is something I truly believe in and is part of my religion. No I am not a devil worshiper but I don't really want to get into detail on here what it is. I am not ashamed of my religion but people have a tendency to over analyze things and make things look and sound wrong. So back to the movie I have been walking around this house hearing every little noise and going what was that. It has rattled me so much I don't want to be alone. I know it is silly, I used to hang out at much scarier places for fun years ago but my house can get so quiet and I am so not used to quiet because my whole life I have been in a house full of so many people at once. Its day time and I am freaking out wondering if something will grab me. Ha Ha OK enough of the ghost talk. Emie woke me up twice last night and now she is still sleeping. It's almost 9 come on kid wake up and keep your crazy scared mama company. I think that my mind can be rattled since I have a very active imagination and love supernatural things, vampires, things of the unknown, scary things. I can't wait to watch the last two weeks of supernatural. i am so behind on my shows its killing me. But I watch my shows on Mondays or Tuesdays, it's kinda my thing. I also haven't had coffee since everyone has been on thanksgiving break in this house and I have been sick. So I have to catch up on supernatural, greys anatomy, private practice, brother & sisters and glee. Also have to catch up on no ordinary family. I like it but I don't have an undying desire to watch it like i do with supernatural. i love that show so much. I always wanted to be a writer for a TV show or a movie. Have you ever wanted to be someone else besides who you are? Have you ever wanted to do something else with your life? Not saying I don't like my life. I really do like my life, I just am so creative and imaginative that i often wonder what else I could be doing with that brain. Sometimes I feel crazy with all that creativity sitting in my head and not doing anything with it. Once i start working again and getting money in that is mine I will buy an easel and some art supplies and use them. Don't worry just because I have a job I will still write on here. I just haven't written daily since mikayla was off of school and dale was off. But I won't let that happen again, every day I will write and show you my crazy thoughts. Ha ha. I am not crazy just creative. I also like to think of things I would want to invent if I could do that. I need to find a good fantasy book to read. I am totally open for suggestions. I love to read psychological books. OK have to go emie is awake. finally.