Working girl equals poor girl

So I haven't been on here for a few weeks due to working and being so tired. i have been working 4 or 5 days a week and it has been kicking my butt. When I get home I cook and take care of kids and then relax before bed. I feel so stiff when I get home. my joints hurt so bad. Oh well that is what happens when you want to work. So I talked to a friend today who is in a rough patch right now but will get past this.  i was telling her that she could get past this rough patch just to stay positive. I felt really good with the advice I gave her and i just felt good helping someone so dear to me. i have been through so much in my life that it feels good to use my life experience and help someone out. I try to stay positive on a daily basis and overcome whatever battles i have to. my keys on my computer are getting stuck right now and not typing the right letters. ugh. oh well. I am trying to make time for my friends and not be all about work and no play. what really sucks is all of the working i am still behind on bills and in debt. I also still have no money to touch since i spent everything i needed to on bills. Can not wait for tax money so that i can get the things i need. i can not wait to use some of that money. of course not all of it, it will go to my savings. So for Christmas i got lots of stuff for me to paint with and draw. I got an i pod from dale with a best buy gift card but i cant find the stupid gift card anywhere. ugh. really want to find that so i can get a sims 3 expansion game. I also got a lot of racing games for the wii from dales brother and parents. The kids got everything they wanted. Liv dolls for mikayla and walking toys for emerald. (Did i tell you she walks? she started last month, she also got more teeth. so now she has two teeth on top and three on bottom, she is also getting two more teeth on top) I had a blast on Christmas eve with dales mom's family. We stayed till 2 am. It was so much fun. I can't wait to do it again next year. Christmas day was nice. It had some dramatic moments (not my fault, some people just don't  want anyone happy) but it was a very full day. NYE we are having a few friends over at the house but it will low key and relaxing. I can't wait. I really like that i am close with dales parents and brother. I love being part of there family. I can't wait for them to be my in laws. I really appreciate all that dale does for me. He really is a good man. Today while i worked and he was off, he watched the kids and did a bunch of chores around the house. It really is nice when someone else helps do the chores. I love being with him. I truly am happy. Our dog nikki is snoring while i am typing lol. it's sad that mikayla has to go back to school on Monday so i will miss her. i miss my kids when i work. i know i see them when i come home. but i still miss them. Being a mommy is hard. I would never change that for any reason in the world. I know i am happy but i am also a little sad that things are estranged between my brother and my mother. They just don't see things the way i do. They always think that i am wrong and i am evil and there is no other way but there way. oh well cant please everyone. that is what i tell myself everyday when i feel helpless to other people. Well my leg is starting to hurt and i am getting tired.