Everything is back to normal. What is normal?

I got married June 11. It was a lot of work with doing it yourself favors, bouquets and other stuff I had to do for the wedding but very much worth it. I enjoyed every stressful moment of planning and organizing the wedding. There were some bloopers on the big day but that is how it goes. You can't have a perfect day but no biggie. We went to Vegas for our honeymoon. We drank, ate at buffets, I shopped a lot, and we listened to live music outside every day. It was tons of fun. I am very glad to have found my soul mate. Now I get to spend the rest of my life with him. I believe everything happens for a reason and that there is the right timing for everything. I am not saying we are perfect and we don't fight. We are equal partners that compromise in every situation sometimes we but heads and argue but we make up and realize that is what makes us individuals. I believe that is what is key in relationships. My life went from planning and organizing a wedding back to laundry, cooking and keeping kids occupied. I sometimes catch myself wondering what can i do as far as the job thing goes to make myself happy. For right now I am a stay at home mom. I am looking for babysitting, housekeeping and jobs I can do either at home or with kids with me so we don't have to pay for a sitter and so I don't have to be away from the kids. I always felt guilty working when Mikayla was little and she had to go to daycare or a sitter. I know it is what I had to do to make ends meet but I always felt like someone else was raising my kid and I was just a visitor. I have nothing against day cares, sitters or childcare in general. I think its great. I just feel like I should be watching them and making sure there minds are enriched. So I am deciding what my next step in life is.. Stay tuned for that decision. On the education note every summer Mikayla does worksheets I find in all subject from the grade level she just finished and some from the grade level she will start in fall. I found lots of great websites where I can print out the worksheets plus she goes online to education websites for 30 minutes a day on weekdays and plays educational games. I love that she isn't losing the information she learned and she loves that she can play online. Her and I also developed a goal chart for the summer of all the things she was scared of that she wants to accomplish. Like learning how to swim, ride a bike, roller skate, make new friends without moms help, read a book from start to finish. So far she has achieved two goals. I am so proud of her. We also have a summer reading program competition that her and I read as many books as we can and whoever reads the most wins. I make her do book reports for me so I know that she is actually Reading and not just saying she is. I believe reading is not only fun and imaginative but also a great way to get grades up. I also have flash cards I use for Emerald so she can learn her animals and colors. I plan on writing on this blog a lot more since everything is back to normal. See you soon....