Wishes I lived in a warmer climate

I am so cold and the house is 73 degrees. The heat isn't on and the house is warm for everyone but me. My hands feel like I just woke up from a grave. Brrr. I was going to write this morning while drinking my coffee and Emie napped but instead I was goofing around on facebook as usual and doing laundry. I feel accomplished today since I did everyone's laundry and tidied up around the house. I still have to clean the bathrooms and mop but I can do that after dinner. I am making pork chops. I made them so good last week that I was dreaming about them. Ha Ha. Emie is standing more and more. So proud of her but at the same time not ready for her to grow up so fast. I can't believe in three months she will be one year old and in twelve days she will be nine months. Dale was teasing me because I was getting emotional over my baby growing up. When your pregnant it feels like forever then when they are born it feel like they grow up in a day. Life goes so fast. So I applied to a few more jobs today and will be calling some back tomorrow to see if they reviewed my application yet. Hopefully I can get a part time job soon. I know that Dale says he will make everything work out if I can't get a job but I still stress. That is how I am. I worry about everything. I just want extra money to not worry about things. Especially with Christmas around the corner and then Dale's birthday then Emerald's birthday then Mikayla's birthday. That is a lot of Birthdays in a four month span. Thank god mine is in July. Ha Ha. Tomorrow i have a mall playdate with a friend and her daughter. I am excited to be getting out of the house and hanging out with a friend. I am trying to be in a positive mood every day. I found out the other day that my unemployment money might be getting smaller. It already is smaller than most people. Now it gets even tighter with finances. Oh well all I can do is just breathe and let what happens happens. I can only control what is in my control. I am trying to let that be my montra. Hopefully it sticks. All I can think about is money and jobs. So much has happened in the last year alone: I was laid off, had Emerald, moved in with my boyfriend, and recently my grandfather died. I visited him in hospice before he actually passed and he looked bad. It looked as if the life went out of him. I have know him to be a fighter and it looked as if he gave up on the fight. He lead a good life, he was eighty when he passed. I know that doesn't make the suffering of his passing go away but just telling the facts. He was very ill and slowly dying the past six months. I chose to celebrate his life by looking at photos and thinking of good memories instead of being upset everyday and mourning. I am not saying that mourning is wrong, it isn't. I just choose to not, that is my belief. I have a bunch of little things that I believe in and it might not be the normal thing but it's my thing. It makes my life a little easier. I couldn't go to the funeral or wake because it was too far of a drive and inconvenient for Emerald's nap and feeding schedule. But I was there in spirit. I hope my family understood. Ok so on a lighter note I love to tape all of my shows and then watch them on Monday's during the day. So my show list is Glee, Grey's Anatomy, Private Practice,Supernatural and Brothers and Sisters. Sometimes I do watch other shows but these are my weekly have to watch or I will cry shows. And I am behind this week on watching. Ha Ha. I caught up this monday on two weeks ago shows and last weeks, but still have a few left to watch. These are the joys of my life. Well now I have to end here so I can switch the laundry and start making Pork Chops. Hungry already.